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me to stay another week. Her plans required all her time and
attention, she said; she was about to depart for some unknown
bourne; and all day long she stayed in her own room, her door bolted
within, filling trunks, emptying drawers, burning papers, and
holding no communication with any one. She wished me to look after the
house, to see callers, and answer notes of condolence.
One morning she told me I was at liberty. 'And,' she added, 'I am
obliged to you for your valuable services and discreet conduct!
There is some difference between living with such an one as you and
with Georgiana: you perform your own part in life and burden no one.
To-morrow,' she continued, 'I set out for the Continent. I shall
take up my abode in a religious house near Lisle- a nunnery you
would call it; there I shall be quiet and unmolested. I shall devote
myself for a time to the examination of the Roman Catholic dogmas, and
to a careful study of the workings of their system: if I find it to
be, as I half suspect it is, the one best calculated to ensure the
doing of all things decently and in order, I shall embrace the
tenets of Rome and probably take the veil.'
I neither expressed surprise at this resolution nor attempted to
dissuade her from it. 'The vocation will fit you to a hair,' I
thought: 'much good may it do you!'
When we parted, she said: 'Good-bye, cousin Jane Eyre; I wish you
well: you have some sense.'
I then returned: 'You are not without sense, cousin Eliza; but what
you have, I suppose, in another year will be walled up alive in a
French convent. However, it is not my business, and so it suits you, I
don't much care.'
'You are in the right,' said she; and with these words we each went
our separate way. As I shall not have occasion to refer either to
her or her sister again, I may as well mention here, that Georgiana
made an advantageous match with a wealthy worn-out man of fashion, and
that Eliza actually took the veil, and is at this day superior of
the convent where she passed the period of her novitiate, and which
she endowed with her fortune.
How people feel when they are returning home from an absence,
long or short, I did not know: I had never experienced the
sensation. I had known what it was to come back to Gateshead when a
child after a long walk, to be scolded for looking cold or gloomy; and
later, what it was to come back from church to Lowood, to long for a
plenteous meal and a good fire, and to be unable to get either.
Neither of these returnings was very pleasant or desirable: no
magnet drew me to a given point, increasing in its strength of
attraction the nearer I came. The return to Thornfield was yet to be
tried.
My journey seemed tedious- very tedious: fifty miles one day, a
night spent at an inn; fifty miles the next day. During the first
twelve hours I thought of Mrs. Reed in her last moments; I saw her
disfigured and discoloured face, and heard her strangely altered